☆ ur musiC sucks

I still wake up with tear stained eyes —

so its like you’re still here 

my mind reminisces of all the times I romanticized 

but reality quickly sinks in 

and I remember it for what it was 

I rewind to august — still cry over it

a bnb full of people only you knew 

while I was sober holding back tears 

blaming myself for the girls and texts on your phone 

thought by January it had been the end of it 

but you slipped up and forgot I’m allergic to latex 

I held on out of embarrassment 

throwing out my self respect left and right 

as if the ache was worth it all 

praised you online to cover up your lies and for what? 

I always knew I could do better and deserved it too

I know I never mattered and you’re still* doing everything you wanted

‘cause nothing ever stopped you 

and hearts like mine don't leave unscarred 

but i’ve made peace with that 

In the end I hold more than just “love” 

I carry devotion 

something you were and always will be unworthy of