☆ i’d hate u if I could

we’re nothing alike, you move through crowds as I stay back 

two worlds that should’ve never tied yet fate with its fingers chose to bind  

I craved a love that’s unseen where it can stay clean away from lights, no eyes to pry just you and I. 

but even in silence you pull away, already hiding me and tell me it’s not out of shame. 

you fear to be caged so I try , I bend , I stay. 

I’ll put us up for display 

sometimes i feel i'm better off in my own space but i miss your presence when you're away and constantly check my phone for a text. i remember when you would obsess over me that same way but nowadays you crave space. i know the want for it doesn't dim your love for me in any way i just worry one day you'll wake up and crop me out of the moments we've made. the way you used to handle me was soft but now you’re careless. i find myself missing your warmth when it goes cold and despite how easily it is to upset you , you're no longer gentle. i miss you picking me up at random times of the night to hit a diner and order a drink with two straws but october is long gone. i guess deep down i hope no matter how annoying my emotions may get i don't ever want you to push me away. Yet you tell me how much you don’t care. How my feelings don’t matter and still i wait to be engraved in your soul not just your tattoos. I’ll stay in the ink on your skin since your hearts no longer reserved for me. i wish you could see inside my mind maybe then you'd understand why i would’ve waited for you despite the time we spent apart.